Beloved – A Tribute

My Chronicles — By Dr. Mommy on February 13, 2009 at 8:39 pm

Wow, Valentine’s Day is tomorrow and that makes it more difficult for me to write this post. You may be wondering why and that is what I am about to share with you.

This post is called -”Beloved – A Tribute” and it is in memory of my “Mami”. Tomorrow, Feb.14th, marks the 15th anniversary of my beloved’s passing.

Not a day goes by that I don’t think about her. What would she think of the rearing of my children? What would she think of me having 5 children, when I always said I wouldn’t have more than 1? Would she be proud? Oh, how I miss her.

I still remember the many phones calls I would make to her, when I couldn’t remember an ingredient for one of her yummy meals. I was very fortunate to be the one that was at her feet when she cooked. I was mesmerized by how easy it came to her. She could make an elaborate meal with only a few ingredients. Her cooking was the BEST!! I am now the one making meals and experimenting while my girls watch and help. I hope to pass down the many Spanish meals and traditions I learned from my beloved.

Now, 15 years later…I still feel the emptiness, although I know she is in a wonderful and peaceful place with Our Heavenly Father, the pain still lingers on. They say with time, the pain subsides, but I’m not quite sure how long that will take.

I realize that the time must be approaching, because I am able to celebrate Valentine’s Day with my family and love of my life. We have decided to take the children out for a family picnic and then have a romantic dinner date. I know that my beloved would not want me to continue to mourn. The time has come to enjoy my days with smiles and no more tears. Although I am very good at hiding my pain, masking it with an everlasting smile, the happiness and peace is finally approaching. I can feel and sense it. Tomorrow will be a day of celebration and not one of sadness.

I will never forget her smile, her sense of humor, her wonderful meals, her loving and caring eyes and most importantly her strength and determination. Those are all qualities she instilled in me and I know that she would want me to continue the tradition and no longer mourn but celebrate her life. I love you “Mami”.

So with that said, I am wishing all of you a wonderful and loving Valentine’s Day. Cherish each moment and make it last a lifetime.

The Chronicles continue…